instead of saying “i want to kill myself” whenever something bad happens to me as a result of circumstances beyond my control i’ve started saying “i’m going to kill god” and it’s honestly done wonders for my self-esteem
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you know what? 2019 mood
this has the same energy as the “i want to go to bed” post but a teeny bit more chaotic
more things i’ve discovered after 2 years of raising garden snails:
- they will wiggle their eye stalks in excitement
- they have favorite places to sleep and favorite friends to sleep with
- they’re good for your skin so let them run around on ur face!!!
- they can feel their shells, which means they can feel u pet them (pet gently!!)
- u can help a snail with a broken shell by giving it eggshells or cuttlebones to scrape (the calcium helps them patch up!)
- they like a change of scenery and will explore all day if u change something
- absolute cuddle bugs. love to snuggle with u, with friends, with dirt
- u can hear them chew!! listen closely when u feed them….. asmr
- as distinct as snowflakes, every single one is different!! i can tell all of my snails apart easily
- babies. absolute baby children
- speaking of babies, baby garden snails are no bigger than raindrops and translucent… delicate!! keep in a separate enclosure until they’re bigger!! baby jail!!!
- some snails are shy……… kiss them. they are important
Personal Year Numerology⭐️
Every year we have a different number universal year. In 2019 it is number 3 (2+0+1+9 = 12 -> 1+2=3)
To see what a year is going to be like for you, you have to calculate your personal year number by adding up your birthday to the universal year.
ex: My birthday is March 16th so: 1+6+3 = 10 and now add universal year: 10+3 = 13 -> 1+3=4 so 2019 is going to be my personal year 4.
🌟Personal year 1: You are beginning a brand new cycle! Last year finally a completion and now you are ready to have a fresh start. It is time to plant new seeds, take action and be bold. Put yourself first this year, believe in yourself!
🌟Personal year 2: After all that craziness last year, it is time to slow down and reflect. Realize what is important to you and what do you truly want! Find balance, learn how to say no to others and receive all the good stuff. Listen to your inner voice, your intuition is very high this year!
🌟Personal year 3: It is time to be creative! Stop worrying and create the life you want. Look at the beauty around and within you. Use manifesting and your creativity to create the life you’ve always wanted. Be grateful and do all the hobbies and fun stuff you enjoy!
🌟Personal year 4: Last year was all about creativity and new ideas, so now you have to create a strong foundation from all of that. Establish routines, get organized and focus especially on money, career, family and home. This year is about preparing for the future by becoming more secure and hardworking.
🌟Personal year 5: All the hard work is behind you, now it is time to have fun and travel! You are going to meet new people, maybe even move towns or at least travel to distant places. Go on an adventure or start a hobby you’ve always wanted to try. Your social life is going to be amazing this year, so go out and have fun!
🌟Personal year 6: This year you have to focus on balance. Take care of your mind body and soul and focus on home and family. This is also a great year for attracting a partner but you have to make sure that you are fully taking care of yourself first. Focus on harmony and love this year!
🌟Personal year 7: You will be feeling very spiritual this year. Take a break to focus on your intuition and emotions. Also you will be spending a lot of time in nature to connect to Mother Earth. You should meditate a lot this year and let your emotions flow. Keep looking at the big picture and do what your heart truly desires!
🌟Personal year 8: It is time to act big! You will begin to see everything you’ve worked so hard on. Live your life to the fullest. Take risks and follow your dreams. Remember that there are no limitations and you can achieve what ever you set your mind to. It is okay to be powerful and go after what you want. Go for it and have fun!
🌟Personal year 9: You’ve made it! You are on the final year of the cycle. You have learned a lot and you might find people coming to you for advice. Let go of what no longer serves you. Forgive and finish up any loose ends. Reflect on this cycle and learn from it. It is okay to spend time alone this year! Listen to your intuition and be proud of everything you have achieved. Take everything good with you to the next cycle and leave what doesn’t serve you behind!
🌟Personal year 11: 11 is a master number so we don’t add it up and we just leave it as it is. This year is all about intuition and spirituality! You have to master all the opportunities and challenges that come this year by sharing your gifts and having courage. This is also a great year for teaching others. Access your gifts by listening to your higher self and meditating. You could meet someone very special but just remember to love yourself first!
🌟Personal year 22: Like 11, you also have to master your life this year. Amazing opportunities are coming towards you, so take action! Number 22 is Master Builder so this year is perfect for starting business and building lasting solid foundations. Don’t lose hope if something isn’t working out for you, remember that it is important to have fun and enjoy what you are doing!
Notes to Thirteen Year Old Girls
When your best friend tells you all she had for breakfast
Was a packet of Splenda and a Diet Coke,
And she tells you that she’ll stop after she loses five more pounds,
Do not believe her.
Tell her mother.
It does not matter how angry your friend gets.
The pain of that will always be preferable to the pain
Of seeing your best friend in four years
Weighing as much as she does now
Half-dead in the hospital.
When your father sneaks into your bed in the dead of the night,
And he tells you that this is how fathers love their daughters,
Do not believe him.
Tell your English teacher.
She will have read millions of stories of girls like you.
There is a one in six chance that she will be a girl like you.
There is a five in six chance that she will know what to say to you.
There is a six in six chance that she will help you.
When your veins whisper to you in the moonlight
And say that there are so many nightmares inside you
That could be free
If you would just open your arms,
Do not believe them.
Tell your school’s guidance counselor,
No matter how scared you are
Because whispers are liars,
And opening your arms will only open the passage
For more nightmares to climb in.
And when the therapists say that you are better,
Totally better,
And you don’t need to worry about the sadness again,
Do not believe them.
Always be cautious, because sadness has a way
Of sneaking up on you
When you’re not looking.
Be careful.
Be careful.
Things on my grandpa’s dirt road farm that was actually pretty creepy in hindsight
There was always a specific spot where anything mechanical would shut down. Cars would stall and a four wheeler would cut off
A graveyard that didn’t belong to our family sat beside the home. We don’t know the names on the gravestones
There was a skeleton in the forest. We don’t know who passed there
A home at the beginning of the road burned down but the chimney remained. I swear we could see smoke coming from it sometimes
There were figures in the wheat fields sometimes but they were too far away to see. Grandpa said they were neighbors and we should never talk to them
My great grandmas house sits next to my grandpa’s, abandoned, and we were told to never go in there
Sometimes at night when I couldn’t sleep, I could hear the sound of clacking coming down the road
Grandpa’s Farm Gothic
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Reblog those rainbow gay squids and something good will happen to you
Having gay squids on my blog is reward enough in itself
I’m really bad at distinguishing between romantic and platonic affection because as soon as someone pays attention to me I just want to be around them
i hope every girl who likes girls gets a romantic kiss under the mistletoe this year
i also hope every boy who likes boys gets a romantic kiss under the mistletoe too and this all goes double for trans and nb people happy holidays
self care for when you hit rock bottom
i fucking hate self care posts made by neurotypicals so here’s one from someone who Actually Gets It
-can’t shower or take a bath? me either. dry shampoo can make your hair look and feel cleaner, and baby wipes or makeup wipes work great to get the top layer of grime off your skin.
-can’t wash your sheets and make your bed? i feel you. push your blankets out of the way and shake the crumbs off your sheet. it will at least be a bit more comfortable.
-can’t even change out of your dirty pajamas? been there. hit yourself with some febreeze and a lint roller. if you can, brush your hair. if you can’t, hair ties and bobby pins are fantastic.
-can’t make anything to eat? same. if you can, there’s no shame in ordering food. in fact, it’s probably better you eat something rather than go hungry. if you can’t, try and find something that comes pre-made or takes minimal effort to make. at the very least, drink some water.
can’t respond to messages or reach out for help? yeah, i get that. set an alarm for a few hours from now and respond to any messages you need to once you’ve given yourself time to prepare. if they’re Important Messages that need Professional Responses, you can find fill-in-the-blank format rough drafts on google. as far as personal messages go, don’t feel bad for sending a mass “I’m sorry, I’m in a personal emergency right now. I’ll get back to you as soon as I can.” response to everyone.
-can’t even sleep because it’s so bad? asmr videos always knock me out, personally, but i also watch a lot of bob ross. just try to find something quiet and soothing to use as background noise and take your mind off it, or at least give you a more peaceful environment to think about it.
-can’t go for a walk/drive? try opening the blinds or curtains. you’re still exposing yourself to the outside world. baby steps. (i also play animal crossing or sims; it may be virtual but fuck it. i went on a walk.)
-can’t go into work/school? let people know. let your coworkers or classmates know it’s an emergency and you can’t make it. give yourself up to two days, but then you have to go back. ask to have your work emailed to you so you know what you missed.
-can’t brush your teeth and wash your face? makeup or baby wipes and gum or mouthwash. don’t let yourself physically rot bc you’re rotting emotionally.
-remember that you’ve been here before. if you survived then you can survive now. that’s what this is about- survival. you don’t have to be living your Best Life. right now, it’s more than enough that you’re alive.
This is the only self car masterpost I’ve ever seen that is feasible for severe depressive episodes
Wwwwwoooowww needed this
Look. Someone that gets it. Rather than just someone who’s never been there “gently reminding you” to shower and eat and drink.
